Waiting in line today to pick up Chloe from her next to last day of preschool....reading the newspaper...listening to the rain on the roof of my car....just an ordinary day...the cars slowly inch up...I love watching the kiddos walk to their cars....each one striving to be so independent....with their little book bags.
As I stop to let Chloe climb in...her teacher hands me a plastic zip-loc baggie...inside is the purple pants and matching top that I sent at the beginning of the year for Chloe's extra outfit. I had forgotten about the outfit, it is just some cheap cotton knit that I didn't mind leaving at school and Chloe getting zero wear out of...because Yay ~!!!!! not one accident all year...what a big girl.
and that was just it....the outfit hit me like a ton of bricks this pile of purple cotton swirling around me like a cold wind. Another year gone by. She is a big girl. Only one more year of preschool....and it too will be gone in a flash. I start hot flashing...feelings of pride, sadness, guilt, doubt, happiness and mostly love swallow me. I wish more than anything that for just a bit we could be still, she and I.....and soak each other up....time is outta here and we don't get any of it back.
So as I imagined the outfit does not even fit her anymore...in just 9 short months.
Unlike all the other outfits that she outgrows this one will not be sold or given away or donated....it will stay in my drawer as a reminder that we need to Be Still every now and then.
have a happy day.